Paranoia

It's hard to explain psychosis. It's even harder to draw it. Yes, I hear voices, have delusions, get paranoid and more. No, I'm not violent (true fact: those with mental illness are more likely to be the victims of a crime than commit the crime itself) but my mind can get pretty scary. I've never hit another person.

My delusions are on the line that I influence people with my mind, such as causing them sickness because I'm toxic. I can't look people in the eyes because they'll be able to read my mind. Stuff like that. So I made this zentangle. It's not exactly a zentangle, but its doodle art, so I'm posting it.

All of my black gel pens are now dead so I'll be posting in blue for a bit, after this, or red. I went through a set of 12 black gel pens with zen doodles!

With paranoia, nothing goes the right way or makes any sense. Your mind is essentially tangled up. Fortunately, I didn't draw this while paranoid. I used ideas from an old painting I did, the faces with arms and the eyes. I wanted a lot snaking through.
Take it for what it's worth. I'm no artist. But this is how I draw one symptom: paranoia.